What is wrong with some people? Why is it that certain people in your life get to waltzed around pointing fingers and placing blame but really they need a massive reality check? Yes this is a rant. Just who do you think you are? For the life of me I have no idea why you even bother trying with people or wanting something more for yourself considering the way you act.
Why do you enjoy hurting people so much? Why is it you can’t accept that maybe your actions are causing them to implode? Why are you so right when it comes to everyone else’s shit but they couldn’t possibly have any insight into their own feelings or what makes them tick.
You are not that powerful but you do have the power to stop hurting people but you refuse to and why is that? Does it make you feel better?
You are cruel and your actions are cruel.
Yes a lot of the time, they are only words but please do not underestimate their power. Now I am for the most part a strong person who can fortunately take a step back and see the forest for the trees. But there are many people in this world who cannot see what you are doing and do take on your hurtful and vile words. No one deserves to be treated or spoken to the way you have carried on. It is a disgrace and there are no excuses for it. You are no better than anyone else and do not have the right no matter who you are to ever make anyone feel the way you make me feel.
You are not the most important person in the world and in the end you are not judged on how many people you think like you for just being you. In the end it will come down to how many people have you helped get back up rather than knocked down. Standing quietly beside someone is more powerful than parading your imperfect self around for what reason I am still trying to work out. It is ugly and this is why when you find yourself cast out with no where to turn. Will it only be then that you are forced to realise that it is your own doing.
I can’t be the only person in the world who comes across these kinds of people? Do not let them determine your self worth as that comes from inside you, ‘self’. When you find yourself stronger look out for the little ones who do not have a strong voice and walk along beside them. There is no shame in stumbling as long as you get back up and remember what it was like to be down there. Remember how alone you felt at the time and use that to in the future recognise those who suffer quietly or may feel this way. I know on a number of occasions certain people have come out of no where and even with the smallest of gifts helped me get back up and go on for another day.
This life is not played for one winner. Either we all win or we all loose.
Considering all of the past weeks events I want to turn this around. I want to highlight all the truly wonderful and special people who have come into my life and made it better. The ones who care for no other reason other than they care.
I missed a visit with my son today as I could not find the strength to do it. I can’t take the humiliation for much longer and you all need to hear this and take it seriously.
Be kind to
Enjoy xoxo
DIARIES FROM DOMESTIC VIOLENCE 