The thing about putting yourself out there is it opens you up to games. How many of us play games in this life? With peoples hearts, emotions and even self worthless. Why is it we have an understanding that children need genuine love and care for their development but we don’t carry that through into adulthood? At what point does it go wrong and we get to an age where the genuine love and care becomes one of a more damaging interaction?
Why can we not honestly and genuinely want the best for people and encourage that? Why is it we punish the people around us for our own self doubt? Use their insecurities to make us feel better because we simply just don’t like ourselves. Why can we not speak up when we are hurt by someone and have them see that pain and treat it with respect? Why do we say one thing when we mean another? Why do we run from the things we want and embarrass the things that damage us because we are used to it?
What’s wrong with putting yourself out there? I sometimes think maybe it’s just me who is not afraid of the outcome? Why are we scared of those who tell us the truth and prefer to listen to the ones who only tell us what we want to hear? It’s a whole lot of wasted words and life becomes a scene from a move as opposed to the real thing.
Sometimes I feel like I’m the only one who doesn’t fit in? Good or bad I try to own every decision I’ve made. Otherwise what’s the point of doing it in the first place?
The thing about truly being ok with yourself is that being alone doesn’t scare you. In fact it’s probably the easier option. But forever the optimist I want to believe ‘it’s’ out there for me.
If I’m gonna take the risk though and put myself out there with people they are going to have to take that and be respectful of it.
One thing to keep in mind though is just as it was put out there it can just as easily be taken away. It’s not a game. I don’t want to hear your fake stories or be treated the way you wish you treated someone in your past. I also won’t put up with the rest of the crap because I’m not them and I do not want to live an unhappy life and either should you.
We all need to get a massive reality check it seems. This ever increasingly cold and cruel world is one our children have to live in. One day we will not be here to give them genuine love and care so can we for the sake of humanity just be nice to each other? If not then at least say it so we are all on a level playing field. It’s the lies and misdirection destroying us all not a substance or negative behavior.
Take some ownership in your life and although we all mess up how about we try to just not do it again instead of fighting each other only armed with a ridiculous story.
Just because you say it doesn’t make it true.
What is true is how absolutely stupid it looks to everyone else, even ourselves!
DIARIES FROM DOMESTIC VIOLENCE 