Day 2,122 Of Domestic Violence – Practical Magic

Manifestation. I often wonder how much of this life is determined by our state of mind and how much is created by our unconscious self.

What does it all mean?

He will hear my call a mile away. He will whistle my favorite song. He can ride a pony backwards. He can flip pancakes in the air. He’ll be marvelously kind. And his favorite shape will be a star. And he’ll have one green eye and one blue.

This is so I can make sure I never find true love. This is so I never have to lose my true love

I think for all the searching and all the possible ones I’ve finally found mine.

But within a day I’d lost him. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach before he left. As tears flowed down my cheek I watched him ride away. He was supposed to meet me at home almost 24 hours ago but never showed up.

It seems to be a running theme in my life where anything I love seems to get taken away. I think the unknown is the scariest part.

I wish I had something profound to say but all I can do is attempt to distract myself while they look for him. I feel sick and a bit doubtful of the universe and the way it deals with punishment of us. That broken little girl inside me questions whether he has simply run off. But if it’s meant to be it will come back you’ll see.

To him, don’t let this life get you down. It’s already shown us that it was never going to be easy so why would it start now? Love is not meant to be easy and times like this are the ones that count. I don’t know about you but this is a test I plan on passing.

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