Eros – love. So I feel like I found that part of me which has been missing my whole life 4 days ago. I don’t feel as though it’s ever felt this way before but I don’t really know? For some reason, this current moment, I can’t remember the exact feeling for anyone else in […]
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Day 2,246 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To My Love Part 2
I wrote this yesterday. I don’t think I’m as angry today with you but the fact remains the same. You let me down. The sad fact is days like yesterday happen more often than not these days. I’ve previously written about loving someone means you have to decide whether the good outweigh the bad but […]
Day 2,244 Of Domestic Violence – How Is Your Mental Health Today?
There have been so many times I’ve heard in the popular media about the issues pertaining to mental health and the great lengths governments have been going to in the way of tackling it. In my experience what I’ve found is anything but and is similar to the issue I found with DV Connect and […]
Day 2,236 Of Domestic Violence – I Mustache You A Question But First I Will Give You A Clue!
I don’t even know where to begin with this one! Other than ‘ha ha funny play on words hey?’ Honestly that’s the best I could come up with! These usually have a somewhat ‘whimsical’ feel to them. They usually detail the somewhat unbelievable and bizarre trail we found ourselves on. This one is just pissing […]
Day 2,234 Of Domestic Violence – Happier
This one goes out to a friend of mine who I had an interesting ‘school excursion’ to the cemetery with this morning. Now this person is hilariously quick witted which I’m sure will get him in loads of trouble when he grows up although something tells me he will have the best fun doing it! […]
Day 2,233 Of Domestic Violence – Where Have All The Cowboys Gone?
‘Where have all the cowboys gone?’ For some reason the 1990’s hit by the so called ‘anti feminist’ Paula Cole comes to mind. That is when I think of how things are at present and have been for sometime. No not literally! Just like I’m sure the song was intended in 1997, as a sly, […]
Day 2,231 Of Domestic Violence – Careful What You Wish For
Domestic violence has been a part of my life for a very long time but not until a few months ago did I realiseI that fully. People carry on with far out concepts of existence and ask questions like ‘what’s beyond the universe?’ But quite frankly I’m still trying to work out what the everyday […]
Day 2,202 Of Domestic Violence – Unconditional Love Is No-Prob-Lama!
Unconditional love. It’s what your mother has for you. Well it’s what your mother is supposed to have for you. I know that I have it within me. There are a lot of things in this life I get that I feel a lot of humans or as I often refer to them, ‘aberrations’ don’t […]
Day 1,200 Of Domestic Violence – Brother From Another
Dear Brother From Another The way I could describe you is the same way I would love someone to describe me. You are funny, smart, quick witted and a beautiful person who I know has the potential to do amazing things. You are kind and genuinely caring which is not easily found in people these […]
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Day 1,197 Of Domestic Violence – Sometimes Dickhead Friends Are Worth Having Sometimes
I started writing this about a day ago. Normally these begin well but end the same. Crashing and burning and me left wondering how I could have missed the obvious signs in front of my face the entire time. This being the reason for such a wide selection of misfires to choose from. I often […]
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
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Day 2,186 Of Domestic Violence – Friday 18th January 2019
Friday 18th January 2019. I want to remember this date. Why? Because today was a really good day! Today was the first time I consciously acknowledge that my life had turned a corner. Whether it has been happening for a while now and I’m only realising it now or maybe it was a phone call […]
Day 2,184 Of Domestic Violence – Somebody Special
It’s hard to explain to someone who obviously cares about us how after a while this fight just seems pointless. I know they care and I know they mean the best but if you had to live even a fraction of the horrors I’ve lived in this lifetime I wonder where your head would be […]
Day 2,181 Of Domestic Violence – I Hate Everything About You
Honesty. Just a word it seems. Why is it that being possibly the most understanding person after the fact, I am also lied to so often and so blatantly. Do I have fuckwit plastered on my forehead? To you all I have to say is, just as quickly as we fell in love, I fell […]
Day 2,169 Of Domestic Violence – In The End Are They Worth The Ups And Downs
I have written about this a few times already. About how this lovely friend of mine told me that turning 33 would be a life changing for me. She told me that decisions would have to be made and that this would be the year my life would change. This week I realised what that […]
Day 2,155 Of Domestic Violence – Watching The Sun Go Down
It’s the question or at least a possible answer to a long standing mystery in my life. Why is it so easy to fall in love with me but I’m always passed over in the end? Why do I never get a happy ending? Look I have my issues which can consume me from time […]
Day 2,151 Of Domestic Violence – Weeds Are Flowers Too, Once You Get To Know Them.
Recently I’ve been asking people the question, ‘what do you think needs to change or what’s it going to take for men and women to get along finally. How do we stop damaging each other so much and just get along?’. My ‘funny answer’ to that question is ‘sterilisation and brain damage’. At this point […]
Day 2,148 Of Domestic Violence – Screw You Disney
At what point do we just give up on ourselves? At what point is trying to tell yourself you are worth something just fucking pointless? Maybe it’s a male/female thing? Maybe all men are just assholes and all woman are just evil bitches? But I’m not so is it a case of me being the […]
Day 2,146 Of Domestic Violence – All In The Family
This year I wrote about losing my family. I wrote about them turning their backs after the domestically violent relationship I was in and subsequent usage came to light. I believe I said that although it was tough that I’d decided in the end I could not have them back in my life. I came […]
Day 2,145 Of Domestic Violence – Same Same But Different Now
This one is short and sweet. I started it yesterday and today I’ve decided not to add too much more to it. The question is important so I’m gonna mull over it instead of turning this into a novel. As life tailspin’s again I feel as if these blog posts pour out of me. When […]
Day 2,144 Of Domestic Violence – Something To Remind You
Sadly I’m pretty adversed to heartbreak and the human condition letting me down. I have little experience though when it comes to people being who they say they are and coming through for me when I need it. Why? Simply because they care. I realise that I have to get used to people treating me […]
Day 2,125 Of Domestic Violence – My Head
When I think about how many times my worth has been proven to be less I feel deflated. It’s hard to keep getting back up each time even though I know who and what I am and what I have to offer. From recently having dreamt an entire night? Albeit there were a few differences […]
Day 2,103 Of Domestic Violence – Pain Is Only Skin Deep
Pain. When I look around lately it’s all I seem to see. A sea of faces from all walks in pain. One thing used to numb that pain bringing people who ordinarily wouldn’t have crossed paths together with one common goal in life. To numb that pain. So is it a case of the world […]
Day 2,080 Of Domestic Violence – Those Who Matter Don’t Mind
Next week is his birthday. Next week my son turns 8. He had not long turned 6 when she lied and used manipulation on even myself to turn everyone against me and trick me into signing over temporary custody. I will never forgive my mother for what she has done and for his this has […]
Day 2,061 Of Domestic Violence – Never Been Kissed
Even though most of my confidence has returned and my voice loader than it has ever been in the past I still struggle. I struggle to trust myself and my decision making when it comes to certain areas of my life. Every now and again the universe throws me a curve ball in the form […]
Day 2,044 Of Domestic Violence – Confidence In Me
On the days leading up to releasing a video to help promote my fundraiser I feel nervous about letting it all hang out there. It’s one thing to tell people in passing but it’s another to expose myself to the world. I have not been an angel whilst on this path but a lot of […]
Day 2,042 Of Domestic Violence – Where Do You Go When No One Cares?
Maybe I’m just extra specially unlucky or maybe no one really cares? At this point I’m not sure which one it is. Recently I wrote to the Crime and Corruption Commission (CCC) regarding failures I have been involved with first hand when it comes to the Queensland Police Service. My complaint covered things such as: […]
Letter From A Not So Typical Male – His Observation
A friend recently showed me something he wrote. He handed me his phone and said ‘here this is how I see you’. I was suddenly interested as I love an opportunity to learn something about myself. What I found was something insightful and sweet. The way he describes me is exactly how I see myself […]
Day 2,025 Of Domestic Violence – The Human Connection And Hero’s In Red Shoes.
I work for the Salvation Army. I have been tasked with doing a short piece each month in the newsletter. I wanted to meet with certain groups that meet weekly and people within the corps to get their story and have a chat with them. I wanted to share it with the rest of the […]
Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Stronger Than You Think
There are a few people who make me smile in this life. To you Miss Alana whom I love very much. Although you are relatively new friends I think you are here to stay! It is very much like meeting myself or a close version of myself. Soft, sweet and the kindest of souls, all […]
Day 2,005 Of Domestic Violence – When Will It Be Our Turn?
Why is it that tragedy or adversity are the things that inspire us to be the most profound? Why can’t a happiness, stability or even just a sense of calm invoke the same effect? I like to think it’s because we are too busy enjoying how good it feels and we are spending every moment […]
Day 2,004 Of Domestic Violence – To Right A Wrong
How to be wrong the right way? Oxymoron maybe? I have always believed that to be able to feel wronged from time to time you must also be able to admit yourself when you have wronged others. Sounds simple right! Why is it that we find it much easier to tell a stranger or someone […]
Day 1,864 Of Domestic Violence – The Yin And Yang Of Love ❤️
I met someone who spoke about an important relationship in their past not working due to the fact they were almost yin and yang when it came to the way they lived their lives. It was suggested that a relationship between two polar opposites was impossible and doomed right from the start to ever work […]
Day 1,863 Of Domestic Violence – Lost Boys
Two new and very lovely additions to my ever expanding support network and new found family took me out last night. We went somewhere I wouldn’t necessarily have gone on my own before. I can say I am very glad that I did. While I have been to a few suburban Salvation Army Services this […]
Day 1,855 Of Domestic Violence – Liar Liar Pants On Fire
To lie is to intentionally give a false statement. This is interesting and although in the past I did on occasions lie. Ok I’d say I probably lied as much as your average person. Why? To get what I wanted, to save embarrassment and I guess the biggest reason we lie, to get out of […]
