Eros – love. So I feel like I found that part of me which has been missing my whole life 4 days ago. I don’t feel as though it’s ever felt this way before but I don’t really know? For some reason, this current moment, I can’t remember the exact feeling for anyone else inContinue reading “Day 2,301 Of Domestic Violence – Insanity And A Love Note On A Kite”
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Day 2,293 Of Domestic Violence – Galloping Through The Headmiles
Post traumatic stress disorder, anxiety, panic attacks? Call it what you want it’s a mind field of confused half thoughts and edginess. I find my rope getting shorter and shorter. Please don’t make mindless chit chat with me because I have that much going on I may scream at you even though it’s not yourContinue reading “Day 2,293 Of Domestic Violence – Galloping Through The Headmiles”
Day 2,246 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To My Love Part 2
I wrote this yesterday. I don’t think I’m as angry today with you but the fact remains the same. You let me down. The sad fact is days like yesterday happen more often than not these days. I’ve previously written about loving someone means you have to decide whether the good outweigh the bad butContinue reading “Day 2,246 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To My Love Part 2”
Day 2,245 Of Domestic Violence – The Art Of MAN-ipulation 101
Man-eater, temptress, master manipulator, puppeteer, siren, witch. These are just a few words that have been used to describe me in the past. To say I don’t know I’m even doing it would be a lie. Let just say I’m skilled in the art of a coquettish and have been for most of my life.Continue reading “Day 2,245 Of Domestic Violence – The Art Of MAN-ipulation 101”
Day 2,244 Of Domestic Violence – How Is Your Mental Health Today?
There have been so many times I’ve heard in the popular media about the issues pertaining to mental health and the great lengths governments have been going to in the way of tackling it. In my experience what I’ve found is anything but and is similar to the issue I found with DV Connect andContinue reading “Day 2,244 Of Domestic Violence – How Is Your Mental Health Today?”
Day 2,236 Of Domestic Violence – I Mustache You A Question But First I Will Give You A Clue!
I don’t even know where to begin with this one! Other than ‘ha ha funny play on words hey?’ Honestly that’s the best I could come up with! These usually have a somewhat ‘whimsical’ feel to them. They usually detail the somewhat unbelievable and bizarre trail we found ourselves on. This one is just pissingContinue reading “Day 2,236 Of Domestic Violence – I Mustache You A Question But First I Will Give You A Clue!”
Day 2,234 Of Domestic Violence – Happier
This one goes out to a friend of mine who I had an interesting ‘school excursion’ to the cemetery with this morning. Now this person is hilariously quick witted which I’m sure will get him in loads of trouble when he grows up although something tells me he will have the best fun doing it!Continue reading “Day 2,234 Of Domestic Violence – Happier”
Day 2,233 Of Domestic Violence – Where Have All The Cowboys Gone?
‘Where have all the cowboys gone?’ For some reason the 1990’s hit by the so called ‘anti feminist’ Paula Cole comes to mind. That is when I think of how things are at present and have been for sometime. No not literally! Just like I’m sure the song was intended in 1997, as a sly,Continue reading “Day 2,233 Of Domestic Violence – Where Have All The Cowboys Gone?”
Day 2,231 Of Domestic Violence – Careful What You Wish For
Domestic violence has been a part of my life for a very long time but not until a few months ago did I realiseI that fully. People carry on with far out concepts of existence and ask questions like ‘what’s beyond the universe?’ But quite frankly I’m still trying to work out what the everydayContinue reading “Day 2,231 Of Domestic Violence – Careful What You Wish For”
Day 2,207 Of Domestic Violence – Don’t Be That Guy!
What is friendship? It should mean caring and understanding for someone outside your family circle. In a sense the creation of an extended family. The beautiful thing is you get to enjoy the highs and lows of someone’s life, such as their kids growing up with yours and as it is a relationship by choiceContinue reading “Day 2,207 Of Domestic Violence – Don’t Be That Guy!”
Day 2,202 Of Domestic Violence – Unconditional Love Is No-Prob-Lama!
Unconditional love. It’s what your mother has for you. Well it’s what your mother is supposed to have for you. I know that I have it within me. There are a lot of things in this life I get that I feel a lot of humans or as I often refer to them, ‘aberrations’ don’tContinue reading “Day 2,202 Of Domestic Violence – Unconditional Love Is No-Prob-Lama!”
Day 1,200 Of Domestic Violence – Brother From Another
Dear Brother From Another The way I could describe you is the same way I would love someone to describe me. You are funny, smart, quick witted and a beautiful person who I know has the potential to do amazing things. You are kind and genuinely caring which is not easily found in people theseContinue reading “Day 1,200 Of Domestic Violence – Brother From Another”
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Day 1,197 Of Domestic Violence – Sometimes Dickhead Friends Are Worth Having Sometimes
I started writing this about a day ago. Normally these begin well but end the same. Crashing and burning and me left wondering how I could have missed the obvious signs in front of my face the entire time. This being the reason for such a wide selection of misfires to choose from. I oftenContinue reading “Day 1,197 Of Domestic Violence – Sometimes Dickhead Friends Are Worth Having Sometimes”
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’
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Day 1,188 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To D – Why I’m Not Like All The Other Little Girls
I often wonder what my full potential might have been. How life might have looked had I not being a child of domestic violence. My first memory being about 3 years old. It was very early in the morning and as my father was a truck driver so he left for work early. I canContinue reading “Day 1,188 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To D – Why I’m Not Like All The Other Little Girls”
Day 2,184 Of Domestic Violence – Somebody Special
It’s hard to explain to someone who obviously cares about us how after a while this fight just seems pointless. I know they care and I know they mean the best but if you had to live even a fraction of the horrors I’ve lived in this lifetime I wonder where your head would beContinue reading “Day 2,184 Of Domestic Violence – Somebody Special”
Day 2,181 Of Domestic Violence – I Hate Everything About You
Honesty. Just a word it seems. Why is it that being possibly the most understanding person after the fact, I am also lied to so often and so blatantly. Do I have fuckwit plastered on my forehead? To you all I have to say is, just as quickly as we fell in love, I fellContinue reading “Day 2,181 Of Domestic Violence – I Hate Everything About You”
Day 2,169 Of Domestic Violence – In The End Are They Worth The Ups And Downs
I have written about this a few times already. About how this lovely friend of mine told me that turning 33 would be a life changing for me. She told me that decisions would have to be made and that this would be the year my life would change. This week I realised what thatContinue reading “Day 2,169 Of Domestic Violence – In The End Are They Worth The Ups And Downs”
Day 2,155 Of Domestic Violence – Watching The Sun Go Down
It’s the question or at least a possible answer to a long standing mystery in my life. Why is it so easy to fall in love with me but I’m always passed over in the end? Why do I never get a happy ending? Look I have my issues which can consume me from timeContinue reading “Day 2,155 Of Domestic Violence – Watching The Sun Go Down”
Day 2,151 Of Domestic Violence – Weeds Are Flowers Too, Once You Get To Know Them.
Recently I’ve been asking people the question, ‘what do you think needs to change or what’s it going to take for men and women to get along finally. How do we stop damaging each other so much and just get along?’. My ‘funny answer’ to that question is ‘sterilisation and brain damage’. At this pointContinue reading “Day 2,151 Of Domestic Violence – Weeds Are Flowers Too, Once You Get To Know Them.”
Day 2,148 Of Domestic Violence – Screw You Disney
At what point do we just give up on ourselves? At what point is trying to tell yourself you are worth something just fucking pointless? Maybe it’s a male/female thing? Maybe all men are just assholes and all woman are just evil bitches? But I’m not so is it a case of me being theContinue reading “Day 2,148 Of Domestic Violence – Screw You Disney”
Day 2,146 Of Domestic Violence – All In The Family
This year I wrote about losing my family. I wrote about them turning their backs after the domestically violent relationship I was in and subsequent usage came to light. I believe I said that although it was tough that I’d decided in the end I could not have them back in my life. I cameContinue reading “Day 2,146 Of Domestic Violence – All In The Family”
Day 2,145 Of Domestic Violence – Same Same But Different Now
This one is short and sweet. I started it yesterday and today I’ve decided not to add too much more to it. The question is important so I’m gonna mull over it instead of turning this into a novel. As life tailspin’s again I feel as if these blog posts pour out of me. WhenContinue reading “Day 2,145 Of Domestic Violence – Same Same But Different Now”
Day 2,144 Of Domestic Violence – Something To Remind You
Sadly I’m pretty adversed to heartbreak and the human condition letting me down. I have little experience though when it comes to people being who they say they are and coming through for me when I need it. Why? Simply because they care. I realise that I have to get used to people treating meContinue reading “Day 2,144 Of Domestic Violence – Something To Remind You”
Day 2,103 Of Domestic Violence – Pain Is Only Skin Deep
Pain. When I look around lately it’s all I seem to see. A sea of faces from all walks in pain. One thing used to numb that pain bringing people who ordinarily wouldn’t have crossed paths together with one common goal in life. To numb that pain. So is it a case of the worldContinue reading “Day 2,103 Of Domestic Violence – Pain Is Only Skin Deep”
Day 2,080 Of Domestic Violence – Those Who Matter Don’t Mind
Next week is his birthday. Next week my son turns 8. He had not long turned 6 when she lied and used manipulation on even myself to turn everyone against me and trick me into signing over temporary custody. I will never forgive my mother for what she has done and for his this hasContinue reading “Day 2,080 Of Domestic Violence – Those Who Matter Don’t Mind”
Day 2,061 Of Domestic Violence – Never Been Kissed
Even though most of my confidence has returned and my voice loader than it has ever been in the past I still struggle. I struggle to trust myself and my decision making when it comes to certain areas of my life. Every now and again the universe throws me a curve ball in the formContinue reading “Day 2,061 Of Domestic Violence – Never Been Kissed”
Day 2,044 Of Domestic Violence – Confidence In Me
On the days leading up to releasing a video to help promote my fundraiser I feel nervous about letting it all hang out there. It’s one thing to tell people in passing but it’s another to expose myself to the world. I have not been an angel whilst on this path but a lot ofContinue reading “Day 2,044 Of Domestic Violence – Confidence In Me”
Day 2,026 Of Domestic Violence – Juvenile Love
Earlier this year I had the heart breaking decision to give up on someone that is loved for half my life. He was a serial pest when it came to woman and keeping it in his pants. The sad reality is he was someone I met in my late teens, dated in my early 20’sContinue reading “Day 2,026 Of Domestic Violence – Juvenile Love”
Letter From A Not So Typical Male – His Observation
A friend recently showed me something he wrote. He handed me his phone and said ‘here this is how I see you’. I was suddenly interested as I love an opportunity to learn something about myself. What I found was something insightful and sweet. The way he describes me is exactly how I see myselfContinue reading “Letter From A Not So Typical Male – His Observation”
Day 2,025 Of Domestic Violence – The Human Connection And Hero’s In Red Shoes.
I work for the Salvation Army. I have been tasked with doing a short piece each month in the newsletter. I wanted to meet with certain groups that meet weekly and people within the corps to get their story and have a chat with them. I wanted to share it with the rest of theContinue reading “Day 2,025 Of Domestic Violence – The Human Connection And Hero’s In Red Shoes.”
Day 2,013 Of Domestic Violence – Standing Up To My Daddy Issues
They talk about ‘Daddy issues’ as a joke sometimes but to be honest they are more real than we like to think. My father was an angry, self righteous, physically and verbally abusive, controlling mess and still is to this day. Most of my life I have been told ‘that’s just the way he is’Continue reading “Day 2,013 Of Domestic Violence – Standing Up To My Daddy Issues”
Day 2,011 Of Domestic Violence – It’s A thing!
The thing about putting yourself out there is it opens you up to games. How many of us play games in this life? With peoples hearts, emotions and even self worthless. Why is it we have an understanding that children need genuine love and care for their development but we don’t carry that through intoContinue reading “Day 2,011 Of Domestic Violence – It’s A thing!”
Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Stronger Than You Think
There are a few people who make me smile in this life. To you Miss Alana whom I love very much. Although you are relatively new friends I think you are here to stay! It is very much like meeting myself or a close version of myself. Soft, sweet and the kindest of souls, allContinue reading “Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Stronger Than You Think”
Day 2,007 Of Domestic Violence – The Guilt I Feel
This goes out to two woman in particular out there. You know who you are! Thank you for telling me I am selfish. Telling me I choose something over my own son. Thank you for ignoring me, for taking me out of my sons life and cutting me down or humiliating me any chance youContinue reading “Day 2,007 Of Domestic Violence – The Guilt I Feel”
Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Act Like A Man
What is wrong with some people? Why is it that certain people in your life get to waltzed around pointing fingers and placing blame but really they need a massive reality check? Yes this is a rant. Just who do you think you are? For the life of me I have no idea why youContinue reading “Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Act Like A Man”
Day 2,005 Of Domestic Violence – When Will It Be Our Turn?
Why is it that tragedy or adversity are the things that inspire us to be the most profound? Why can’t a happiness, stability or even just a sense of calm invoke the same effect? I like to think it’s because we are too busy enjoying how good it feels and we are spending every momentContinue reading “Day 2,005 Of Domestic Violence – When Will It Be Our Turn?”
Day 2,004 Of Domestic Violence – To Right A Wrong
How to be wrong the right way? Oxymoron maybe? I have always believed that to be able to feel wronged from time to time you must also be able to admit yourself when you have wronged others. Sounds simple right! Why is it that we find it much easier to tell a stranger or someoneContinue reading “Day 2,004 Of Domestic Violence – To Right A Wrong”
Day 1,889 Of Domestic Violence – Stupid Boys
Why is it that they are nice and then they’re not? Why do men these days seem to be more interested in the sleazy games and trickery than they do about any real connection with a woman? What if you suddenly met one that didn’t tell you what you wanted to hear or at leastContinue reading “Day 1,889 Of Domestic Violence – Stupid Boys”
Day 1,887 Of Domestic Violence – Perpetual Loneliness
Life more and more presents itself to me as a scary and lonely experience. Often it seems as if the time and effort we put into people is wasted. I don’t know about you but I feel like I’m the only person who ‘gets it’. Then again a crazy person doesn’t know they are crazyContinue reading “Day 1,887 Of Domestic Violence – Perpetual Loneliness”
Day 1,878 Of Domestic Violence – He Love’s Me, He Loves Me Not
It seems a whole lot harder to date or find love after domestic violence. Sometimes it it seems impossible to just find a man to speak nicely to me. After a whole host of bad relationships it seems as if maybe I’m destined to be lonely and broken forever. Last night was late night shoppingContinue reading “Day 1,878 Of Domestic Violence – He Love’s Me, He Loves Me Not”
Day 1,875 Of Domestic Violence – Wednesday 27th June 2018
Good morning. Today is Wednesday. Once a week it’s Wednesday but it will never again be Wednesday 27th June 2018. Today is just another day but it cannot be done again, taken back or changed. Note to self. Enjoy the day. Good or bad accept today as it is. Either grow from the experience orContinue reading “Day 1,875 Of Domestic Violence – Wednesday 27th June 2018”
Day 1,870 Of Domestic Violence – The Better Man
Often when we find ourselves in a never ending cycle of let downs and feel like there isn’t one decent man left on the planet. Sometimes we are just looking in the wrong place. It’s the theory of insanity, doing the same thing over and over again yet expecting a different outcome. It’s not asContinue reading “Day 1,870 Of Domestic Violence – The Better Man”
Day 1,864 Of Domestic Violence – The Yin And Yang Of Love ❤️
I met someone who spoke about an important relationship in their past not working due to the fact they were almost yin and yang when it came to the way they lived their lives. It was suggested that a relationship between two polar opposites was impossible and doomed right from the start to ever workContinue reading “Day 1,864 Of Domestic Violence – The Yin And Yang Of Love ❤️”
Day 1,863 Of Domestic Violence – Lost Boys
Two new and very lovely additions to my ever expanding support network and new found family took me out last night. We went somewhere I wouldn’t necessarily have gone on my own before. I can say I am very glad that I did. While I have been to a few suburban Salvation Army Services thisContinue reading “Day 1,863 Of Domestic Violence – Lost Boys”
The After Effects Of Domestic Violence -What Are We Left With In The End?
Yesterday I found myself without my headphones. I never realized just how much of a crutch they had become for me when I’m on my own. Spending time on my own is the most confronting and feels the realest. Luckily I am still pretty practiced in the art of pretending like the rest of them. […]
Day 1,855 Of Domestic Violence – Liar Liar Pants On Fire
To lie is to intentionally give a false statement. This is interesting and although in the past I did on occasions lie. Ok I’d say I probably lied as much as your average person. Why? To get what I wanted, to save embarrassment and I guess the biggest reason we lie, to get out ofContinue reading “Day 1,855 Of Domestic Violence – Liar Liar Pants On Fire”
Day 1,852 – Of Domestic Violence- The Beautiful People
At times I have thought that maybe there are no good people left on the earth? Are we due for that zombie apocalypse? End of days I call it!! My friends would have heard me talk about ‘End if Days’. Something tells me maybe I was just looking in the wrong place? Is it aContinue reading “Day 1,852 – Of Domestic Violence- The Beautiful People”
Day 1,848 Of Domestic Violence – To Build A Home
I met a woman overnight. It’s hard to describe this person. She was on one hand terrifyingly and seemed at first to have a massive chip on her shoulders but I don’t mean that in the traditional sense. It was clear that she had been through a lot and it was apparently clear when sheContinue reading “Day 1,848 Of Domestic Violence – To Build A Home”
Day 1,845 of Domestic Violence – Money Money Money!!
I never thought too much about my age. I can remember getting to eighteen seemed to take a lifetime. Being that my childhood was slightly dysfunctional I couldn’t wait until I had finished year 12 and to get out of home. When I left home the first time in about April of 2004, not longContinue reading “Day 1,845 of Domestic Violence – Money Money Money!!”
Today’s anthem
Day 1,844 of Domestic Violence – The Power Of Positive Thought
Positive thoughts? It’s difficult sometime to look on the bright side and be faced with people telling you ‘it will all work out in the end’. I know a lot of it is a case of people not knowing the right thing to say or having an answer or simply them wanting to help butContinue reading “Day 1,844 of Domestic Violence – The Power Of Positive Thought”
Why do we stay?
No one falls in love with an abuser. They groom you to love them. They groom you into obedience and control you through intimidation and fear. In the beginning it’s a normal relationship. You meet a man he is funny and charming. He tells you all the right things .that he will care for you,Continue reading “Why do we stay?”
Day 1,839 Of Domestic Violence – The Wonder Years
What would you do if I sang out tune? Would you stand up and walk out on me? Lend me your ears and I’ll sing you a song I will try not to sing out of key, yeah Oh, baby I get by with a little help from my friends By with a little helpContinue reading “Day 1,839 Of Domestic Violence – The Wonder Years”
Day 1,836 Of Domestic Violence – Such A Shame, She Was Such A Nice Girl!
Shame. I have felt ashamed of myself before sure! I am in no way perfect and I am the first person to admit it. Accepting that I am not perfect and admitting my faults has not always gone so well for me to say the least. The only bright side is I don’t have tooContinue reading “Day 1,836 Of Domestic Violence – Such A Shame, She Was Such A Nice Girl!”
