Positive thoughts?
It’s difficult sometime to look on the bright side and be faced with people telling you ‘it will all work out in the end’. I know a lot of it is a case of people not knowing the right thing to say or having an answer or simply them wanting to help but be powerless. In any case I haven’t always felt it to be the easiest one liner to deal with when stuck in the middle of my funk. A lot of the time it’s annoyed me and left me with the feeling and the thoughts of ‘well yes that may be true but right now it’s anything but so let me have this minute to feel sorry for myself’.
These past few weeks though I have felt a shift in my, for lack of a better word, my luck! I have come across some very genuine people who have put themselves out there to help me. Somewhat of a new ‘family’ with people who have genuinely cared and worries about me which is something I have lacked in over these past few years.
The kindness of stranger is a wonderful thing and in the past I have felt that I have been one of those strangers who has, hugged someone I didn’t know because they were noticeably distressed or given my spare change or offered a small gesture for no reason other than I have tried to live my life with the thought of ‘if I was in their position I would like someone to give me a hand so I should probably put out what I would like in return to the world’.
I’m beginning to think that school of thought has paid off in a sense. To all those who told me ‘it will work out’ I just want to say, you’re right! I’m sorry if I disheartened at the time but you were right. Things will look up!! Thank you for your support and love. I look forward to getting back to my former self and helping others rather than this disheartened and slightly beaten down by the world version you have had to put up with for a while now.
To all those who find themselves in my position. Keep going, it does look up eventually! While it’s hard at the time and you have the right to feel disheartened try not to wallow there for too long. Also when it turns around don’t forget the people who got you there as they are few and far between and should be cherished!!
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