Day 2,246 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To My Love Part 2

I wrote this yesterday. I don’t think I’m as angry today with you but the fact remains the same. You let me down. The sad fact is days like yesterday happen more often than not these days. I’ve previously written about loving someone means you have to decide whether the good outweigh the bad but […]

Day 2,207 Of Domestic Violence – Don’t Be That Guy!

What is friendship? It should mean caring and understanding for someone outside your family circle. In a sense the creation of an extended family. The beautiful thing is you get to enjoy the highs and lows of someone’s life, such as their kids growing up with yours and as it is a relationship by choice […]

Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’

Day 1,188 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To D – Why I’m Not Like All The Other Little Girls

I often wonder what my full potential might have been. How life might have looked had I not being a child of domestic violence. My first memory being about 3 years old. It was very early in the morning and as my father was a truck driver so he left for work early. I can […]

Day 1,187 Of Domestic Violence – Lie To Me

I often wonder what it is about the masses and their need to lie to each other. To make up stories and better yet lie to themselves. Is it really that hard to own up to your shit? I know I’m not perfect but I do try to be as honest with the rest of […]

Day 2,186 Of Domestic Violence – Friday 18th January 2019

Friday 18th January 2019. I want to remember this date. Why? Because today was a really good day! Today was the first time I consciously acknowledge that my life had turned a corner. Whether it has been happening for a while now and I’m only realising it now or maybe it was a phone call […]

Day 2,181 Of Domestic Violence – I Hate Everything About You

Honesty. Just a word it seems. Why is it that being possibly the most understanding person after the fact, I am also lied to so often and so blatantly. Do I have fuckwit plastered on my forehead? To you all I have to say is, just as quickly as we fell in love, I fell […]

Day 2,155 Of Domestic Violence – Watching The Sun Go Down

It’s the question or at least a possible answer to a long standing mystery in my life. Why is it so easy to fall in love with me but I’m always passed over in the end? Why do I never get a happy ending? Look I have my issues which can consume me from time […]

Day 2,151 Of Domestic Violence – Weeds Are Flowers Too, Once You Get To Know Them.

Recently I’ve been asking people the question, ‘what do you think needs to change or what’s it going to take for men and women to get along finally. How do we stop damaging each other so much and just get along?’. My ‘funny answer’ to that question is ‘sterilisation and brain damage’. At this point […]

Day 2,148 Of Domestic Violence – Screw You Disney

At what point do we just give up on ourselves? At what point is trying to tell yourself you are worth something just fucking pointless? Maybe it’s a male/female thing? Maybe all men are just assholes and all woman are just evil bitches? But I’m not so is it a case of me being the […]

Day 2,146 Of Domestic Violence – All In The Family

This year I wrote about losing my family. I wrote about them turning their backs after the domestically violent relationship I was in and subsequent usage came to light. I believe I said that although it was tough that I’d decided in the end I could not have them back in my life. I came […]

Day 2,145 Of Domestic Violence – Same Same But Different Now

This one is short and sweet. I started it yesterday and today I’ve decided not to add too much more to it. The question is important so I’m gonna mull over it instead of turning this into a novel. As life tailspin’s again I feel as if these blog posts pour out of me. When […]

Day 2,125 Of Domestic Violence – My Head

When I think about how many times my worth has been proven to be less I feel deflated. It’s hard to keep getting back up each time even though I know who and what I am and what I have to offer. From recently having dreamt an entire night? Albeit there were a few differences […]

Day 2,080 Of Domestic Violence – Those Who Matter Don’t Mind

Next week is his birthday.  Next week my son turns 8.  He had not long turned 6 when she lied and used manipulation on even myself to turn everyone against me and trick me into signing over temporary custody. I will never forgive my mother for what she has done and for his this has […]

Day 2,061 Of Domestic Violence – Never Been Kissed

Even though most of my confidence has returned and my voice loader than it has ever been in the past I still struggle. I struggle to trust myself and my decision making when it comes to certain areas of my life. Every now and again the universe throws me a curve ball in the form […]

Day 2,044 Of Domestic Violence – Confidence In Me

On the days leading up to releasing a video to help promote my fundraiser I feel nervous about letting it all hang out there. It’s one thing to tell people in passing but it’s another to expose myself to the world. I have not been an angel whilst on this path but a lot of […]

Day 2,042 Of Domestic Violence – Where Do You Go When No One Cares?

Maybe I’m just extra specially unlucky or maybe no one really cares? At this point I’m not sure which one it is. Recently I wrote to the Crime and Corruption Commission (CCC) regarding failures I have been involved with first hand when it comes to the Queensland Police Service. My complaint covered things such as: […]

Day 2,033 Of Domestic Violence – Home Is Not A Place It’s A Feeling!

Recently I said good bye to the last place I considered home. It was a home I lived in about a decade ago full of fond memories I will cherish forever. I am officially an orphan now and it’s sad to not have that safe place to return to when I need a break from […]

Letter From A Not So Typical Male – His Observation

A friend recently showed me something he wrote. He handed me his phone and said ‘here this is how I see you’. I was suddenly interested as I love an opportunity to learn something about myself. What I found was something insightful and sweet. The way he describes me is exactly how I see myself […]

Day 2,025 Of Domestic Violence – The Human Connection And Hero’s In Red Shoes.

I work for the Salvation Army.  I have been tasked with doing a short piece each month in the newsletter.  I wanted to meet with certain groups that meet weekly and people within the corps to get their story and have a chat with them.   I wanted to share it with the rest of the […]

Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Stronger Than You Think

There are a few people who make me smile in this life. To you Miss Alana whom I love very much. Although you are relatively new friends I think you are here to stay! It is very much like meeting myself or a close version of myself. Soft, sweet and the kindest of souls, all […]

Day 2,005 Of Domestic Violence – When Will It Be Our Turn?

Why is it that tragedy or adversity are the things that inspire us to be the most profound? Why can’t a happiness, stability or even just a sense of calm invoke the same effect? I like to think it’s because we are too busy enjoying how good it feels and we are spending every moment […]

Day 2,004 Of Domestic Violence – To Right A Wrong

How to be wrong the right way? Oxymoron maybe? I have always believed that to be able to feel wronged from time to time you must also be able to admit yourself when you have wronged others. Sounds simple right! Why is it that we find it much easier to tell a stranger or someone […]