Day 2,246 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To My Love Part 2

I wrote this yesterday. I don’t think I’m as angry today with you but the fact remains the same. You let me down. The sad fact is days like yesterday happen more often than not these days. I’ve previously written about loving someone means you have to decide whether the good outweigh the bad butContinue reading “Day 2,246 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To My Love Part 2”

Day 2,245 Of Domestic Violence – The Art Of MAN-ipulation 101

Man-eater, temptress, master manipulator, puppeteer, siren, witch. These are just a few words that have been used to describe me in the past. To say I don’t know I’m even doing it would be a lie. Let just say I’m skilled in the art of a coquettish and have been for most of my life.Continue reading “Day 2,245 Of Domestic Violence – The Art Of MAN-ipulation 101”

Day 2,244 Of Domestic Violence – How Is Your Mental Health Today?

There have been so many times I’ve heard in the popular media about the issues pertaining to mental health and the great lengths governments have been going to in the way of tackling it. In my experience what I’ve found is anything but and is similar to the issue I found with DV Connect andContinue reading “Day 2,244 Of Domestic Violence – How Is Your Mental Health Today?”

Day 2,207 Of Domestic Violence – Don’t Be That Guy!

What is friendship? It should mean caring and understanding for someone outside your family circle. In a sense the creation of an extended family. The beautiful thing is you get to enjoy the highs and lows of someone’s life, such as their kids growing up with yours and as it is a relationship by choiceContinue reading “Day 2,207 Of Domestic Violence – Don’t Be That Guy!”

Day 1,200 Of Domestic Violence – Brother From Another

Dear Brother From Another The way I could describe you is the same way I would love someone to describe me. You are funny, smart, quick witted and a beautiful person who I know has the potential to do amazing things. You are kind and genuinely caring which is not easily found in people theseContinue reading “Day 1,200 Of Domestic Violence – Brother From Another”

Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’

Domestic Violence ‘it’s not a male dominated sport’

Day 1,188 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To D – Why I’m Not Like All The Other Little Girls

I often wonder what my full potential might have been. How life might have looked had I not being a child of domestic violence. My first memory being about 3 years old. It was very early in the morning and as my father was a truck driver so he left for work early. I canContinue reading “Day 1,188 Of Domestic Violence – Letter To D – Why I’m Not Like All The Other Little Girls”

Day 1,187 Of Domestic Violence – Lie To Me

I often wonder what it is about the masses and their need to lie to each other. To make up stories and better yet lie to themselves. Is it really that hard to own up to your shit? I know I’m not perfect but I do try to be as honest with the rest ofContinue reading “Day 1,187 Of Domestic Violence – Lie To Me”

Day 2,186 Of Domestic Violence – Friday 18th January 2019

Friday 18th January 2019. I want to remember this date. Why? Because today was a really good day! Today was the first time I consciously acknowledge that my life had turned a corner. Whether it has been happening for a while now and I’m only realising it now or maybe it was a phone callContinue reading “Day 2,186 Of Domestic Violence – Friday 18th January 2019”

Day 2,184 Of Domestic Violence – Somebody Special

It’s hard to explain to someone who obviously cares about us how after a while this fight just seems pointless. I know they care and I know they mean the best but if you had to live even a fraction of the horrors I’ve lived in this lifetime I wonder where your head would beContinue reading “Day 2,184 Of Domestic Violence – Somebody Special”

Day 2,181 Of Domestic Violence – I Hate Everything About You

Honesty. Just a word it seems. Why is it that being possibly the most understanding person after the fact, I am also lied to so often and so blatantly. Do I have fuckwit plastered on my forehead? To you all I have to say is, just as quickly as we fell in love, I fellContinue reading “Day 2,181 Of Domestic Violence – I Hate Everything About You”

Day 2,155 Of Domestic Violence – Watching The Sun Go Down

It’s the question or at least a possible answer to a long standing mystery in my life. Why is it so easy to fall in love with me but I’m always passed over in the end? Why do I never get a happy ending? Look I have my issues which can consume me from timeContinue reading “Day 2,155 Of Domestic Violence – Watching The Sun Go Down”

Day 2,151 Of Domestic Violence – Weeds Are Flowers Too, Once You Get To Know Them.

Recently I’ve been asking people the question, ‘what do you think needs to change or what’s it going to take for men and women to get along finally. How do we stop damaging each other so much and just get along?’. My ‘funny answer’ to that question is ‘sterilisation and brain damage’. At this pointContinue reading “Day 2,151 Of Domestic Violence – Weeds Are Flowers Too, Once You Get To Know Them.”

Day 2,148 Of Domestic Violence – Screw You Disney

At what point do we just give up on ourselves? At what point is trying to tell yourself you are worth something just fucking pointless? Maybe it’s a male/female thing? Maybe all men are just assholes and all woman are just evil bitches? But I’m not so is it a case of me being theContinue reading “Day 2,148 Of Domestic Violence – Screw You Disney”

Day 2,146 Of Domestic Violence – All In The Family

This year I wrote about losing my family. I wrote about them turning their backs after the domestically violent relationship I was in and subsequent usage came to light. I believe I said that although it was tough that I’d decided in the end I could not have them back in my life. I cameContinue reading “Day 2,146 Of Domestic Violence – All In The Family”

Day 2,145 Of Domestic Violence – Same Same But Different Now

This one is short and sweet. I started it yesterday and today I’ve decided not to add too much more to it. The question is important so I’m gonna mull over it instead of turning this into a novel. As life tailspin’s again I feel as if these blog posts pour out of me. WhenContinue reading “Day 2,145 Of Domestic Violence – Same Same But Different Now”

Day 2,144 Of Domestic Violence – Something To Remind You

Sadly I’m pretty adversed to heartbreak and the human condition letting me down. I have little experience though when it comes to people being who they say they are and coming through for me when I need it. Why? Simply because they care. I realise that I have to get used to people treating meContinue reading “Day 2,144 Of Domestic Violence – Something To Remind You”

Day 2,125 Of Domestic Violence – My Head

When I think about how many times my worth has been proven to be less I feel deflated. It’s hard to keep getting back up each time even though I know who and what I am and what I have to offer. From recently having dreamt an entire night? Albeit there were a few differencesContinue reading “Day 2,125 Of Domestic Violence – My Head”

Day 2,103 Of Domestic Violence – Pain Is Only Skin Deep

Pain. When I look around lately it’s all I seem to see. A sea of faces from all walks in pain. One thing used to numb that pain bringing people who ordinarily wouldn’t have crossed paths together with one common goal in life. To numb that pain. So is it a case of the worldContinue reading “Day 2,103 Of Domestic Violence – Pain Is Only Skin Deep”

Day 2,044 Of Domestic Violence – Confidence In Me

On the days leading up to releasing a video to help promote my fundraiser I feel nervous about letting it all hang out there. It’s one thing to tell people in passing but it’s another to expose myself to the world. I have not been an angel whilst on this path but a lot ofContinue reading “Day 2,044 Of Domestic Violence – Confidence In Me”

Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Stronger Than You Think

There are a few people who make me smile in this life. To you Miss Alana whom I love very much. Although you are relatively new friends I think you are here to stay! It is very much like meeting myself or a close version of myself. Soft, sweet and the kindest of souls, allContinue reading “Day 2,006 Of Domestic Violence – Stronger Than You Think”

Day 2,005 Of Domestic Violence – When Will It Be Our Turn?

Why is it that tragedy or adversity are the things that inspire us to be the most profound? Why can’t a happiness, stability or even just a sense of calm invoke the same effect? I like to think it’s because we are too busy enjoying how good it feels and we are spending every momentContinue reading “Day 2,005 Of Domestic Violence – When Will It Be Our Turn?”

Day 2,004 Of Domestic Violence – To Right A Wrong

How to be wrong the right way? Oxymoron maybe? I have always believed that to be able to feel wronged from time to time you must also be able to admit yourself when you have wronged others. Sounds simple right! Why is it that we find it much easier to tell a stranger or someoneContinue reading “Day 2,004 Of Domestic Violence – To Right A Wrong”

Day 1,864 Of Domestic Violence – The Yin And Yang Of Love ❤️

I met someone who spoke about an important relationship in their past not working due to the fact they were almost yin and yang when it came to the way they lived their lives. It was suggested that a relationship between two polar opposites was impossible and doomed right from the start to ever workContinue reading “Day 1,864 Of Domestic Violence – The Yin And Yang Of Love ❤️”

Day 1,863 Of Domestic Violence – Lost Boys

Two new and very lovely additions to my ever expanding support network and new found family took me out last night. We went somewhere I wouldn’t necessarily have gone on my own before. I can say I am very glad that I did. While I have been to a few suburban Salvation Army Services thisContinue reading “Day 1,863 Of Domestic Violence – Lost Boys”

The After Effects Of Domestic Violence -What Are We Left With In The End?

Yesterday I found myself without my headphones. I never realized just how much of a crutch they had become for me when I’m on my own. Spending time on my own is the most confronting and feels the realest. Luckily I am still pretty practiced in the art of pretending like the rest of them. […]

Day 1,855 Of Domestic Violence – Liar Liar Pants On Fire

To lie is to intentionally give a false statement. This is interesting and although in the past I did on occasions lie. Ok I’d say I probably lied as much as your average person. Why? To get what I wanted, to save embarrassment and I guess the biggest reason we lie, to get out ofContinue reading “Day 1,855 Of Domestic Violence – Liar Liar Pants On Fire”